Monday, April 16, 2012

I will miss you, Dad

My dad passed away this past Thursday after a short and unexpected illness. For almost 4 years he had been confined to a wheelchair due to a stroke, but he continued to live a full life nonetheless. He didn't see life in terms of obstacles, just opportunities or problems that needed to be solved. My dad did not want any obituaries so this notice will be brief. He lived a big life. He was brutally honest. He suffered no fools. He thought for himself. He was an original. And he loved his family. In the days before his passing, his last words were repeated over and over: "I am a lucky man, a happy, happy man, and I am proud of my children and grandchildren."


Someday, after enough time has passed, I look forward to sharing more about his life. He was unafraid to be who he was and I will always be grateful to him for showing me how to live with integrity. He was an ardent traveler and one of his fondest wishes was to remain on the road for the rest of his days. In spite of the wheelchair, this he did right up to the end of his life on this earth.


It gives me great comfort to know his journey continues.
I love you Dad.


And I will miss you.

29 comments:

  1. Dear Amanda,

    This is the first post I see, this morning. There is so much more to say but I trust that in the coming weeks, this opportunity will present itself as you work through this terrible loss through your writing, and invite us into that space with you, here.

    For now, please know that I mourn with you.

    With much love,
    -Suze

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  2. what a formidable presence))) this never ends)

    amanda, i hold you.

    xo
    erin

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  3. Sounds like your dad was a wonderful human being. We will enjoy, in your future posts, knowing him better.
    I share your sorrow,
    Paul C.

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  4. Amanda, our hearts join yours. You will miss him terribly, and your love will continue to grow with all the memories you will collect and hold dear to your heart. Many blessings upon your family.

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  5. dear amanda, i'm so sorry. sending hugs and love to you and your family.xxx lori

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  6. Amanda, thank you for sharing what a wonderful man your father was as he left for his new journey. It is so fine to know he left happy and grateful. My heart is with you and your family.

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  7. I am very sorry for your loss, Amanda.....life changes when we lose our parents....He sounds like a really great Dad...and that is a wonderful legacy....hugs! Susan

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  8. I am so sorry to hear that Amanda. There are really no adequate words at moments like this. Thanks for sharing this wonderful tribute.

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  9. What a lovely tribute to your father. I'm so sorry to hear this sad news- my thoughts are with you and your family. xoxo

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  10. Dear Amanda, I am sorry for your loss , what a wonderful Dad he was and how lucky he was to be your Dad. Sending you many blessings with much love.

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  11. I am very sorry to hear about your loss. My sympathies.

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  12. dear amanda, i am so sorry. love lives forever. i know you know.

    i am facing such a loss with my mom. my heart is so full, and i send you the deepest strongest hug

    love always
    kj

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  13. Dear Amanda,
    Daughter and dad - you were a great duo. I am deeply sorry for your loss.

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  14. From the way you describe him, you have learned a lot from him! Yes, when our parents die, we lose a part of our childhood, of the safety it held, and yet they will never leave us. And I´m sure on his continued journey his family will be with him, somehow, too.
    Have you ever read the Terry Pratchett books? When DEATH appears there (a very friendly person) he leads everyone to just the place he expects! I think that is a comforting thought.

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  15. Amanda, I am sorry to hear that!

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  16. Oh Amanda - I am so sorry. It sounds like your dad lived a full and wonderful life, and passed on his strength to you - and probably to your sisters also.
    Having lost my dad a few years ago after a long life, I still miss him but take such comfort in the fact that he didn't suffer, and had such a good life for so many years.
    Thinking of you, mim

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  17. oh amanda, i am sorry to hear of this. in reading this tribute, i see you are your father's daughter. his strength, his wisdom- may they continue to hold you.

    hug from montana,

    sherry

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  18. His last words were wonderful. I think it's amazing that he was able to speak them over and over and must provide some comfort.
    I'm terribly sorry for your loss Amanda, take your time and grieve as you must. It comes in waves and you just have to let yourself go with it.
    It's been a year and a month since my father passed away and sometimes I'll think, "oh, I need to call my Dad", and then I remember, so I just have a little chat with him right there, because I don't need a phone anymore :)
    Big hugs to you OOO

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  19. So sorry to hear about your dad, Amanda. His final words are wonderful and moving. My own dad died a few years ago, and his last words to me were: "You know I love you, Robert". This was very significant and healing for me, as we hadn't got along too well for most of our lives.

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    1. Robert,

      I can only imagine how meaningful it was for you to hear your father speak those words. Thank you for your kind words of support to me, they bring great comfort.

      Amanda

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  20. "Sing My Song
    To Children Dancing, And Lovebirds Soaring
    From the Nest to the Moon.

    Tell My Story
    To Jasmine Twining and Willows Swaying
    In the Long Summer Sun.

    Look for Me
    In peaceful Eyes of Mothers
    And Faces of their Babies
    In contented sleep.

    Remember Me
    In Quiet Nights of Winter
    And Mornings of New Flowers,
    Dreaming of Spring."

    The words from Andrea Alban Gosline ...

    I lost my Father 20 years ago.... I know....

    Love and Strength,

    ♥ Robin ♥

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  21. I am deeply touched by all the thoughts shared and words of love and support spoken here. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Each of you has brought me a sense of peace in your comments and I will reread your words in the coming days to continue to derive strength and comfort from them. I am so fortunate to have you in my life.

    With love,

    Amanda

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  22. Hello, Amanda. Busy Bear has been a bit slow getting to your post. But, with the others, I share a sadness for your loss of this wonderful man. Blessings to you and your family in this time. Lots of Bear hugs, too!

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  23. Dear friend,I am sorry for your loss.Sending prayers and hugs to you and yours.Cat

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  24. those last words are a gift to help you to heal; i am so sorry for your loss Amanda. i know how hard this is and am thinking of you, sending love to you and your family x

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  25. What a beautiful dad you had. The love he had for you and his family is the biggest gift of all. This means so much to me as I'm planning a trip to see my dad in Paris next month. He turns 87, and I have to remember how lucky I am to have a wonderful father like you did. How old was your dad?

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    1. Sonia - how wonderful that you will visit your father in paris - safe travels and wishing you a wonderful time together. It's so important to make the most of these opportunities we have to spend with our parents. Happy Birthday wishes to your Dad - my Dad was 88 when he passed, and would have been 89 in June.

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  26. It's been a month and I am long overdue here as I do some catching up on my blog reading. Much warmth and best wishes to you, Amanda, in these tough transitional days in that interim between the letting go and the embracing loving memories. My only dad is rather ill and in a precarious state right now and my heart goes out to you.

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